4:12 p.m. - 2004-04-15
bitterlies
Next up we have Eva. Yay for Eva!
I didn't expect to get quite so absorbed in your stuff, woman. I read it over a course of two days. I even read all of your Live Journal stuff. I don't know.. it's not really that I could relate. It was just so.. intruiging. Different. Yellow. Better.
Here's a quote that I took because it just seemed to describe you and what this diary is about so well:
"i am terribly impulsive. it's not that i don't think things through. i always think everything through very throughly before acting. my problem is that even after weighing out consequences and analyzing my motives i still act on the original impulse. always. always, always, always. it never fails. it's hard to call this anything but foolish. my problem is that although i am able to survey a situation and recognize consequences, i am unable to think of the outcome in any kind of real terms. the only thing i am able to feel realistically is whatever it is i feel compelled to do."
To have that kind of clarity about yourself and to say it so intelligently is just.. greatness. Seriously.
To put it mildly, you've been through a lot of stuff. It seems lately you've been doing a lot better, but you still have scars, literally and figuratively. And obviously, I don't blame you.
The bulemia, for instance. Obviously, again, this is not good. But it's rare that I come across diaries that talk about it so clearly and intelligently and not just "I threw up again today because I have to be a size 0 by May."
I eat these things exactly the same way, by the way. Just so you know.
So, really, I just liked all your entries. I liked the more in-depth entries. I like when you're talking about something as simple as ladybugs. I especially like the somewhat random entries where you talk about all kinds of stuff.
I even downloaded that song by Modest Mouse that you said was necessary to download. I didn't like it. But I did it anyway, because you told me to.
I like the layout. You did it yourself, it's simple, and it fits you.
What else can I say? I got sucked in, completely and thoroughly. You write beautifully and intelligently and I really wish you luck on maintaining some peace in your life. You deserve it. I give you an A+.
